Thursday, 11 August 2016

Too Tough.

Dalam satu  nafas itu terhela seribu penyesalan. Berat.  
Dalam setiap keputusan tersimpan sejuta keraguan. Yakin?

I'm still in a state that I haven't put much hope. 
After all hardships I faced. After those tremendous depression episodes. 

I keep a distance from people for more than half a year. 
I fix my heart. I sew the wounds one by one. Sometimes it tore and I bleed. 

Blinded my own eyes. Poking myself to laugh. Cry at nights. Smile a fake grin. 
And day by day, I grew up bolder, care less, but when I fall, I'm back to my real self. 

Oh you poor little heart. 

When you are alone, all you care about is yourself. 
Now that you're in a boat of two, you have to care for both. 
if the boat sinks, you both sink. 
if one lose, the other will lose too, 
if one wins, the other will also win. You're a team now. And there's no "I" in team.

Whoever came to you to claim for your damaged heart, you masked it. 
You lied. Show him the scars. Let him know how you survived. Portray them all. 

Wound heals, scars remained. 

But first, let them show theirs first. 
You don't sell to an uninterested person. You look for one who would jump in front of a bullet for you.  

It takes two to tango. You don't dance alone. You dance for two. You live for two. 
Now that I'm happier, I am more sincere, I care for more. Thank you. 

I'd like to remind me, that 
1. apologize
2. compromise
3. fix your heart. 

Life's short. Be happy!

Wednesday, 10 August 2016

Rain of Flower Petals on Me!

There are some guys pacing across my eyes.
But the one that crosses my heart and my mind is you. Only you.

I sound "flur-tee" but that never be a mistake when it comes to speaking about you.
Forever I'll be cheeky to make you smile more often. And it is sincerely done because of you.

Because you let out my true virtue when you're with me.
You unlocked my heart without any key.

I'll take you home to my mother and my father and my sisters and my brother.
Do the same to me and I love you even more.

We are going to have a very long journey, I pray that you'll stay.  
Stand by me to infinity, I'll be your backbone, baby.      


Bebel wan poin oh. 😂

Life is about making choices. 
You're free to choose everything that suits your plan, your objectives and so on. 

When things gone wrong, it is not because of the wrong choice you made. It is about your failure to manage your own decisions. 
It is how you cope with the environment and surrounding. 
It is how you make interpretation out of it. 

In life, there's nothing comes easy. 
The road should be expected to be bumpy, rocky, slippery and whatever that will hold you back. 

Once you fall, bounce back. 
Once you've broken, pick up your pieces. 

We will stand by each other. Even if we can't get through. Even if we can't find heaven, (eh jangan lah. Aim haruslah sorga!) 

Bila kita jatuh, yang pertama mengangkat  kita ialah ibu bapa. 
Yang sentiasa melihat jatuh bangun kita tanpa putus asa, tanpa putus rasa cinta itu - ibu bapa. 
Yang berbangga dengan pilihan kita, ibu bapa. 

Jadi apa pun yang kita pilih, JANGAN neglect ibu bapa. 
JANGAN lupa pesan ibu bapa. 
JANGAN buat tak endah larangan ibu bapa. 

Kita mungkin boleh bertukar chenta, tapi mana mungkin kita mampu mengganti kasih ibu bapa. 
Yang ada cuma satu, cuma satu. 

When things don't work the way you want, heads up. 
Tiada "kalau kalau", tiada "if if". 

Accept, never expect. Terima, bukan hukum. Hukum diri sendiri jangan, hukum orang lain lagilah jangan. 

(Apa benda laaa dia ni nak cakap!) 

Tak ada point sebenarnya.
Cuma berkecamuk dalam minda. Berselerak dalam hati. 
Nak bercerita belum cukup masa. Nak berkongsi mungkin tiada yang sudi. 

Okay summary. 

1. Bila kita rasa down dengan apa yang dah jadi, let the feelings go. Allah simpan hikmah disebalik apa yang anda lalui. Sabar lah, okay? 

2. Bila rasa bersendiri, jangan la ikutkan hati. Fikir orang yang sayang kita. Mesti ada walaupun jadadnya sudah tak bersama di dunia! 

3. Hidup atas dasar pilihan. Free will. Kita merancang, Allah juga merancang. Indeed, Allah sebaik-baik perancang. Kita silap? Berbalik pada Allah. Kita berjaya? Bersyukur pada Allah. 

Hey, Allah kan ada! 

Tuesday, 2 August 2016

Song stuck in head.

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You..

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you