Wednesday, 27 January 2016

I Need Something Deeper

                                                    "Superficial Love"
You're really cute, I must admit
But I need something deeper than this
I wanna know when I'm looking at you
That you don't only see the things you want to

'Cause I'm not perfect, I'm flawed
And if you don't like that, get lost
'Cause I don't want it if it's fake
I don't want it if it's just for show, for show
I just want it if it's real and I'm thinking I should let you know, you know

This superficial love thing got me going crazy
Baby if you want me, then you better need me
'Cause I'm so done, not being your number one
And if you wanna keep me, then you better treat me
Like a damn princess, make that an Empress
'Cause I'm so done, not being your number one
This superficial love

Fun at first, I won't deny
But I want more than just what meets the eye.
I wanna know when you're looking at me
That you see deep into my personality

'Cause I want authentic, not just for fun
If this love is plastic, It'll break on us
'Cause I don't want it if it's fake
I don't want it if it's just for show
I just want it if it's real and I'm thinking I should let you know

This superficial love thing got me going crazy
Baby if you want me, then you better need me
'Cause I'm so done, not being your number one
And if you wanna keep me, then you better treat me
Like a darn princess, make that an Empress
'Cause I'm so done, not being your number one
This superficial love

I can feel you on my lips all the time
But I just wanna feel you in my heart and on my mind
I can feel you on my lips all the time
But I just wanna feel you in my heart and on my mind
I can feel you on my lips all the time
But I just wanna feel you in my heart and on my mind
I can feel you on my lips all the time
And this ain't right

This superficial love thing got me going crazy
Baby if you want me, then you better need me
'Cause I'm so done, not being your number one
And if you wanna keep me, then you better treat me
Like a darn princess, make that an Empress
'Cause I'm so done, not being your number one
This superficial love

I can feel you on my lips all the time
But I just wanna feel you in my heart and on my mind
I can feel you on my lips all the time
And this ain't right, this superficial love.

Tuesday, 26 January 2016

Have Faith

We make mistakes in every minute. 
Then every two to four hours apart, we seek forgiveness in our prayers. 
Aren't we feel ashamed? 
No. Unless you do but most of us don't. 

Malunya menghadap Allah in a way that kita tak ready, tak prepare, tak bersungguh. 
Kalau dengan manusia, we can get ready for it hours before. Bila nak jumpa Allah? MasyaAllah kain pelikat lusuh, telekung bertahi lalat, make up sayang nak basuh, pakai short tertarik-tarik masa nak rukuk wa sujud. Allahu. 

Teruknya iman. Mungkin lebih nipis dari kulit bawang? 
Ikut usrah, tapi tak macam ikut usrah. Masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri. 🤕 

Kejar publisiti dunia, abai publisiti di akhirat. 
Ingat "bila kita kejar dunia, akhirat berlari meninggalkan kita. Bila kita kejar akhirat, dunia berlari mendapati kita." Allah.

Aku buruk, hina, berdosa. Jangan pandang aku superior, aibku Allah tutup sempurna. 
Aku berusaha untuk buat apa yang aku kata. Aku tak mahu meludah ke langit, juga tak mahu menjilat ludah sendiri. 
Jika aku mengingatkan, maka pertimbangkan sebelum menerima. Jika aku teralpa, heret aku kembali ke dunia nyata. 

Cause life's too short to mourn over dead motivations. Just make a new dream and chase it. 

Whenever you're dirty, go and clean up. 
Whenever you've sinned, go ahead and repent. 

Sunday, 17 January 2016

Better regret the thing you didn't say than to regret the thing you've said. 
Alhamdulillah the mind couldn't speak out loud; if it does we'll be killed due to the war of thought.   

Thursday, 14 January 2016

There are significant differences between readers and non-readers. 

Those who can write, explain and make rhymes. 
Those who can use simple words to beautify a sentence. 
Those who can hide behind every writing, unseen. 
Those who believe that thru writing, the heart and mind speak. 
What you read is what you'll write. What you do is what that'll define you. 

Just to say that no matter what you do, you'll always be remembered. It is you who decide how people's gonna remember you. 😘

Sunday, 10 January 2016

Insomniac - post exam and supersaturated mind.

I couldn't sleep, so I'm up to write.

My mind couldn't get over something. Something I think not worth it yet unconfirmed. It's about a tug-of-war game involving heart strings.

I should not let my mind speaks the hell out of it but when the heavy weeks of exams were over and there's plenty of time to kill till the next OSPE and presentation so I'm sure there's a lot more to think than to just carry out a normal life. Well, being normal is boring but being abnormal is kinda freaking me out. to be honest, I'm stuck between both and now being so in the middle of nowhere trying to figure things out but it will never will.

Because this involves people and I think that people are not aware of what I've been thinking. Yeah since I speak to me and only me.

You know, since the day we made the decision to "you go your way and I'll go my way", or "you do your thing and I'll do my thing". I've been thinking that it is better that way rather than to hold on much longer. I felt relieved and free though it hurts so much like I'm having inflammation in my whole heart and it's bruising, fibrosis, necrosis and the list goes on. (I made that up, it's not that hard)

And then months later when I recovered, rumours spread. We should not trust rumours but hey, it's rumours. It has consequences okay. You're playing with somebody's feeling now.
I'm ruined and apparently you don't know what's happening and rumours? Oh, you got to be kidding me.

For a second, I thought that maybe it is a rebound.

Here's a lesson Dibsy, never go for a rebound unless you're destined to. Follow the flow, ace that B.Pharm, act for your dreams and moving on. Don't give hope or start to hope. You've hurt before, don't make the way for the second time.

You're 22 now Dibsy, there's no time to play. Maybe you'll just wait and see what's gonna surprise you in the end. You created the story with great epilogue, next is to end it well. You know you hate sad ending.

Yeah, I'm talking about my new story, the past is in the past and I'm not living there anymore. If you involved in the past, feel free to know that I'm not the one you knew before. Things changed, so do I. don't ask why because the reasons would be you. It's interrelated and complicated.

nothing.
just had a bad time.
couldn't sleep and need a typing practice.
Let the string loose, or if you wish to stay, let me know you'll stay.
Silence won't work with me. Get it?