Salam 'Alayk and hi.
Well. How's life? :)
I'm home since 3 days ago and I am currently sipping the fresh and hot caffeine-contained drink and trying to write about something.
I used to think before I sleep. I have some thoughts about what I should do instead of what I've done during the day especially when I realized that I've done sth wrongly. Err I might say No it's not wrong but maybe it's a bit not-at-the-right-time for that. Oops, wrong timing.
-yeah, that is an ego in me speaking-
Who the hell out there has no ego?
MasyaAllah I would answer my beloved Rasulullah didn't have any of that vices.
Now we, human would always be overwhelmed by our own self-destructible characteristic. The meaning of self-destructible or apoptotic (technically biologically termed word) is for the soul. You destruct your own soul, by your everyday activities unknowingly that some of that could make your heart dirtier and dirtier day by day.
1. Buat apa-apa tak berniat ikhlas. hasil? Penat semata.
2. Menyumpah, complains. Sungguh la,lidah tak bertulang. Orang saja yang salah?
3. Harapan palsu. Kerjanya culas, harapannya tinggi. Tak guna betul. Amalnya mana?
If and only if we can see our soul thru any means, perghh surely we all gonna behave like the best human race ever.
Imagine if we can see it, and the soul reflect our own true value (based on what we feed the soul- good or bad) then the bad, destructed soul would be so ugly, stinks and blackish.
What if we feed our soul with good virtues?
It can be pure, noble and somewhat beautiful. It can be. It can be.
one thing I am very sure about myself lately is that "I have hasad to many people I encountered. Ini tak kena itu tak kena. What's good happen to them is so wrong to me. Seriously I was like ''woi kau dah kenapa dib nak dengki dengan orang je kerja?". I know shytonns are laughing seeing me like that, feeling that they're winning.
I felt bad since weeks ago and I tried to not to have even a single dot of hasad by trying to imagine my soul just like what I've been nagging in previous paragraph. I don't wanna have an ugly soul. Nauzubillah :( ." I try, we try. Okay? Okayy ;)
Secondly, I complain so fast. It was like one thing gone wrong somewhere and ppffttt pffttt it goes, my bad, bad words coming out thru my mouth. This little tongue must be trained so hard since then. But I've been through a lot. This is only the residues from the past which means I'm a lot more nastier long before you know me now. I bet you wouldn't want to be with me if I didn't take the chance to change. Hmm hmm..
And what separates us from success is the feeling to quit.
I don't quit though I have many reasons to. I chose not to quit. I'm staying strong, I walk with my head up leaving all those past and let bygone be bygone. I went to seek for my new self. My new personality, my beautiful, pure and sacred soul that I neglected at the very early moment.
Okay last-last, have you ever heard about the story of the battle between two wolves? If you haven't then you can search for it in any search engine. I can only provide you the moral value, haha sorry. ;)
"one wolf is fed with anger, hatred, injustice, and violence"
"the other one is fed with kindness, love, care and hope"
"which wolf is winning?"
"the wolf you feed."
p/s: we are not a werewolf like Jacob Black so you can relate the wolf with our soul. heheh.