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Confession - Resolution - Reflection ☕

Salam 'Alayk and hi.

Well. How's life? :)

I'm home since 3 days ago and I am currently sipping the fresh and hot caffeine-contained drink and trying to write about something.


I used to think before I sleep. I have some thoughts about what I should do instead of what I've done during the day especially when I realized that I've done sth wrongly. Err I might say No it's not wrong but maybe it's a bit not-at-the-right-time for that. Oops, wrong timing. 
-yeah, that is an ego in me speaking-

Who the hell out there has no ego? 
MasyaAllah I would answer my beloved Rasulullah didn't have any of that vices. 
Now we, human would always be overwhelmed by our own self-destructible characteristic. The meaning of self-destructible or apoptotic (technically biologically termed word) is for the soul. You destruct your own soul, by your everyday activities unknowingly that some of that could make your heart dirtier and dirtier day by day. 

1.Buat apa-apa tak be…

Love Letters

When I stress I eat and I sleep.
I cried in my sleep and wake up with a bloated face. 
I spend more time singing sad love songs and long pray.
I keep myself a distance from other people. 
I talk to myself as if I need an expert advice. But the only remedy I got is from an instant reflection of what I've done wrong. 

I talk to my mum as if I do not have any other problems. But beyond that, I don't wanna make her overthink of me. I know how overthinking can push away happiness. 
I fake a smile to almost every person i encounter. But when the stress struck me hard, I couldn't even make an effort of straining any facial muscle to create a smile. 

and I got headache. the extreme one. I couldn't stand well, it hurts or in other words, it kills me.
Some people might think that is normal, but you can never expect they're fighting the same battle as you are. 
Their battle may be tougher. 

I could've been imagine how I may behave if I let the old me get inside. You may hate me eve…

Pathetically Pathetic

I'm being so pathetic nowadays even though no one can see how pathetic I was.
I can't even catch a breath during last week's five days of life in this current semester. It's hectic, packed and I struggle so hard to adapt myself.
I lost my self esteem, I'm sick of my own time management and I hate seeing myself saying out excuses by excuses on my own work. In mind it feels like I'm putting myself on a stake, or trying to jump off from a high cliff or what not.

People don't see what I see. They don't feel what I feel. No one knows what others are feeling or experiencing at the same time they're having the time of their life. It can be irony and rarely to be the same.

However, there can never be hardship without ease. There can never be sorrow without happiness. 
There can never be human race continuity without us, eh? >.<

Believe, that everything has an end. And the hardship will be paid off at the very end. 
Good things are worth waiting. 

And waiting …

Usrah; The Second.

Usrah kali ni lebih santai. Lebih #deep.
Usrah dimulakan dengan ucapan emcee which is Jea (read: J). Simple fatihah kemudian pass pada Mijj untuk short tazkirah. 

Tazkirah ni pada sesetengah orang benda yang annoying. Tapi pada sesetengah orang yang mencari tujuan hidup, it is something. Kita mungkin fikir "alahh, common sense." But believe it or not, yang common sense itulah yang kadang-kadang human susah nak buat. Maybe ada yang fikir "bajet baikk je nak ingatkan orang. diri sendiri tu?" Oh well, kau nak menyetan sampai bila agak-agak kan?

The principle of YOLO; You Only Live Once membawa banyak makna. It depends on how you mean it. It depends on how you bring things in your life. Misalnya sukakan dunia, kita isi dunia dalam hati kita dengan macam-macam hal dunia. Ada juga yang beringat, lalu diisikan akhirat dalam hatinya. Tapi most people, most Muslim akan mix. Ada sedikit dunia & kejahilan, ada juga sedikit iman & amal dalam rongga hati.